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An Entry for Those of You Like Me.I thought I should share a journal entry I recently wrote in my diary.
"Being that I am 15 now it has come to my attention that the friends I once treasured, were nothing more than people that felt sorry for me. "You think the darkness is your ally?" A simple yet stupid quote that comes from the newest Dark Knight movie has awakened a lot of questions.
I do in fact believe the darkness is my ally because I have become friends with it, sheltered, protected, and welcomed by it. The darkness has never once left me alone like those friends I knew before it.
Even now, as a normal teenager would be out and about, partying and having the time of their life, I'm here; in my living room, listening to nothing but the vibration of a window fan and the echoing silent screams of my inner thoughts. Staring blankly at a computer screen as if it were a lifeboat and I am on the brink of drowning. Regretting every word on this page and the prior one.
You think you know pain? Try being me: A w
mechanici want to kiss every aching wound you have,
bandage your heart every time it bleeds,
and patch up your mind over and over
because not a single tear deserves to fall
from your brandy-drenched eyes
but this dripping heart of mine can only feel
and the healing honey words it flames get caught
in the back of my throat and on the roof of my mouth
so i only have these passionate guttural cries
to tell you that i care all too much
and in order to fix you up again,
i would need to tear myself to tatters
and trade all of my working parts
for your leftover, fading pieces
but i just haven’t figured out how.
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