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An Entry for Those of You Like Me.I thought I should share a journal entry I recently wrote in my diary.
"Being that I am 15 now it has come to my attention that the friends I once treasured, were nothing more than people that felt sorry for me. "You think the darkness is your ally?" A simple yet stupid quote that comes from the newest Dark Knight movie has awakened a lot of questions.
I do in fact believe the darkness is my ally because I have become friends with it, sheltered, protected, and welcomed by it. The darkness has never once left me alone like those friends I knew before it.
Even now, as a normal teenager would be out and about, partying and having the time of their life, I'm here; in my living room, listening to nothing but the vibration of a window fan and the echoing silent screams of my inner thoughts. Staring blankly at a computer screen as if it were a lifeboat and I am on the brink of drowning. Regretting every word on this page and the prior one.
You think you know pain? Try being me: A w
Too late nowLaying a dim lighted room.
Listening to nothing but the gentle splash of rainfall.
My heart follows the rhythm of the tick tick tick in my ear.
The numbness of my life has helped me not to feel but to be.
A walking talking robot some might say, eyes blinking, lips moving, heart beating.
But its all about to end...
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